I reckon, some people, at some point in their life, would have the experience of feeling lost, and helpless. Right now, there are so many things that I have in my mind, I don’t know how untangle them into pieces, and rearrange all of them into a coherent pattern.
I somehow feel very lost, like being thrown in the middle of the ocean, looking for a sign of a ship coming from afar, or perhaps a glimpse of a small island lurking from the horizon. The wind is blowing just like always, and the wave of the sea continues its rhythm with admirable pace.
I am afraid of so many things, and I am unsure of so many others. Sometimes I feel so scared of waking up in the morning and having to face the presence of others, yet for another day. Sometimes, I just feel like shutting up and lie on my back, ignoring everything else.
Sometimes I yearn for the peace of being a little kid, with problems nowhere to be seen, when everything seems all about play and sleep.
Sometimes I just want to sleep, dream, and just continue living in that dream, where reality can just be forgotten and erased from memory.