And thus Alhamdulillah, I got what I've always wanted; the research department. What's there not to like, I am being paid to read a lot about the stuff that I am passionate about. Though, all of that quickly grew towards indifference.
But last Friday was also when I realized about something new.
It felt almost like waking up with lies plastered all over my body. What if I have misunderstood so many things until now, what if all that I have believed in, that I thought were true, are actually false? I was overwhelmed by the feeling that I have shamelessly acted all this while, on those numerous misunderstandings.
And then, Saturday came in and gave me another realization. It was a confidence booster, a token of appreciation for what I have worked hard for.
I have promised to first and foremost believe in myself, and I have changed a lot since I study philosophy. Thank you Montaigne, Descartes and Thoreau for all of the time that we have spent together.