What I really lack is to be clear in my mind what I am to do, not what I am to know, except in so far as a certain knowledge must precede every action. The thing is to understand myself, to see what God really wishes me to do: the thing is to find a truth which is true for me, to find the idea for which I can live and die. ... I certainly do not deny that I still recognize an imperative of knowledge and that through it one can work upon men, but it must be taken up into my life, and that is what I now recognize as the most important thing.
—Søren Kierkegaard, Letter to Peter Wilhelm Lund dated August 31, 1835, emphasis added
I think I might have spent too much time reading philosophical books and journals. I should be focusing more on doing my essays and homework instead. But, it gives me a peace of mind, new meanings to life and answers for numerous questions I have been asking all this time.
I'd like to think of it as a way of me relaxing, taking a break from utter absurdities in my life.